Chapter 1 - My Parents and Early Life
The characteristic features of Indian culture have long been a search for ultimate
verities and the concomitant disciple-guru1 relationship. My own
path led me to a Christlike sage whose beautiful life was chiseled for the ages. He was one of the
great masters who are India's sole remaining wealth. Emerging in every generation, they have bulwarked
their land against the fate of Babylon and Egypt.
I find my earliest memories covering the anachronistic features of a previous
incarnation. Clear recollections came to me of a distant life, a yogi2 amidst the Himalayan snows. These glimpses of the past, by some
dimensionless link, also afforded me a glimpse of the future.
The helpless humiliations of infancy are not banished from my mind. I was resentfully conscious of not
being able to walk or express myself freely. Prayerful surges arose within me as I realized my bodily
impotence. My strong emotional life took silent form as words in many languages. Among the inward
confusion of tongues, my ear gradually accustomed itself to the circumambient Bengali syllables of my
people. The beguiling scope of an infant's mind! adultly considered limited to toys and toes.
Psychological ferment and my unresponsive body brought me to many obstinate crying-spells. I recall the
general family bewilderment at my distress. Happier memories, too, crowd in on me: my mother's
caresses, and my first attempts at lisping phrase and toddling step. These early triumphs, usually
forgotten quickly, are yet a natural basis of self-confidence.
My far-reaching memories are not unique. Many yogis are known to have retained their self-consciousness
without interruption by the dramatic transition to and from "life" and "death." If man be solely a
body, its loss indeed places the final period to identity. But if prophets down the millenniums spake
with truth, man is essentially of incorporeal nature. The persistent core of human egoity is only
temporarily allied with sense perception.
Although odd, clear memories of infancy are not extremely rare. During travels in numerous lands, I
have listened to early recollections from the lips of veracious men and women.
I was born in the last decade of the nineteenth century, and passed my first eight
years at Gorakhpur. This was my birthplace in the United Provinces of northeastern
India. We were eight children: four boys and four girls. I, Mukunda Lal Ghosh3 , was the second son and the fourth child.
Father and Mother were Bengalis, of the Kshatriya caste.4
Both were blessed with saintly nature. Their mutual love, tranquil and dignified, never expressed
itself frivolously. A perfect parental harmony was the calm center for the revolving tumult of eight
Father, Bhagabati Charan Ghosh, was kind, grave, at times stern. Loving him dearly, we children yet
observed a certain reverential distance. An outstanding mathematician and logician, he was guided
principally by his intellect. But Mother was a queen of hearts, and taught us only through love. After
her death, Father displayed more of his inner tenderness. I noticed then that his gaze
often metamorphosed into my mother's.
In Mother's presence we tasted our earliest bitter-sweet acquaintance with the scriptures. Tales from
the Mahabharata and Ramayana 5 were resourcefully
summoned to meet the exigencies of discipline. Instruction and chastisement went hand in hand.
A daily gesture of respect to Father was given by Mother's dressing us carefully in the afternoons to
welcome him home from the office. His position was similar to that of a vice-president, in the
Bengal-Nagpur Railway, one of India's large companies. His work involved traveling, and our family
lived in several cities during my childhood.
Mother held an open hand toward the needy. Father was also kindly disposed, but his respect for law and
order extended to the budget. One fortnight Mother spent, in feeding the poor, more than Father's
"All I ask, please, is to keep your charities within a reasonable limit." Even a gentle rebuke from her
husband was grievous to Mother. She ordered a hackney carriage, not hinting to the children at any
"Good-by; I am going away to my mother's home." Ancient ultimatum!
We broke into astounded lamentations. Our maternal uncle arrived opportunely; he whispered to Father
some sage counsel, garnered no doubt from the ages. After Father had made a few conciliatory remarks,
Mother happily dismissed the cab. Thus ended the only trouble I ever noticed between my parents. But I
recall a characteristic discussion.
"Please give me ten rupees for a hapless woman who has just arrived at the house." Mother's smile had
its own persuasion.
"Why ten rupees? One is enough." Father added a justification: "When my father and grandparents died
suddenly, I had my first taste of poverty. My only breakfast, before walking miles to my school, was a
small banana. Later, at the university, I was in such need that I applied to a wealthy judge for aid of
one rupee per month. He declined, remarking that even a rupee is important."
"How bitterly you recall the denial of that rupee!" Mother's heart had an instant logic. "Do you want
this woman also to remember painfully your refusal of ten rupees which she needs urgently?"
"You win!" With the immemorial gesture of vanquished husbands, he opened his wallet. "Here is a
ten-rupee note. Give it to her with my good will."
Father tended to first say "No" to any new proposal. His attitude toward the strange woman who so
readily enlisted Mother's sympathy was an example of his customary caution. Aversion to instant
acceptancetypical of the French mind in the Westis really only honoring the principle of "due
reflection." I always found Father reasonable and evenly balanced in his judgments. If I could bolster
up my numerous requests with one or two good arguments, he invariably put the coveted goal within my
reach, whether it were a vacation trip or a new motorcycle.
Father was a strict disciplinarian to his children in their early years, but his
attitude toward himself was truly Spartan. He never visited the theater, for instance, but sought his
recreation in various spiritual practices and in reading the Bhagavad Gita.6 Shunning all luxuries, he would cling to one old pair of shoes until they
were useless. His sons bought automobiles after they came into popular use, but Father was always
content with the trolley car for his daily ride to the office. The accumulation of money for the sake
of power was alien to his nature. Once, after organizing the Calcutta Urban Bank, he refused to benefit
himself by holding any of its shares. He had simply wished to perform a civic duty in his spare time.
Several years after Father had retired on a pension, an English accountant arrived to examine the books
of the Bengal-Nagpur Railway Company. The amazed investigator discovered that Father had never applied
for overdue bonuses.
"He did the work of three men!" the accountant told the company. "He has rupees 125,000 (about
$41,250.) owing to him as back compensation." The officials presented Father with a check for this
amount. He thought so little about it that he overlooked any mention to the family. Much later he was
questioned by my youngest brother Bishnu, who noticed the large deposit on a bank statement.
"Why be elated by material profit?" Father replied. "The one who pursues a goal of evenmindedness is
neither jubilant with gain nor depressed by loss. He knows that man arrives penniless in this world,
and departs without a single rupee."
Early in their married life, my parents became disciples of a great master, Lahiri Mahasaya of Benares.
This contact strengthened Father's naturally ascetical temperament. Mother made a remarkable admission to my eldest sister Roma: "Your father and myself live together as man and
wife only once a year, for the purpose of having children."
Father first met Lahiri Mahasaya through Abinash Babu,7 an employee
in the Gorakhpur office of the Bengal-Nagpur Railway. Abinash instructed my young ears with engrossing
tales of many Indian saints. He invariably concluded with a tribute to the superior glories of his own
"Did you ever hear of the extraordinary circumstances under which your father became a disciple of
It was on a lazy summer afternoon, as Abinash and I sat together in the compound of my home, that he
put this intriguing question. I shook my head with a smile of anticipation.
"Years ago, before you were born, I asked my superior officeryour fatherto give me a week's leave from
my Gorakhpur duties in order to visit my guru in Benares. Your father ridiculed my plan.
"'Are you going to become a religious fanatic?' he inquired. 'Concentrate on your office work if you
want to forge ahead.'
"Sadly walking home along a woodland path that day, I met your father in a palanquin. He dismissed his
servants and conveyance, and fell into step beside me. Seeking to console me, he pointed out the
advantages of striving for worldly success. But I heard him listlessly. My heart was repeating: 'Lahiri
Mahasaya! I cannot live without seeing you!'
"Our path took us to the edge of a tranquil field, where the rays of the late afternoon sun were still
crowning the tall ripple of the wild grass. We paused in admiration. There in the field, only a few
yards from us, the form of my great guru suddenly appeared!8
"'Bhagabati, you are too hard on your employee!' His voice was resonant in our astounded ears. He
vanished as mysteriously as he had come. On my knees I was exclaiming, 'Lahiri Mahasaya! Lahiri
Mahasaya!' Your father was motionless with stupefaction for a few moments.
"'Abinash, not only do I give you leave, but I give myself leave to start for Benares
tomorrow. I must know this great Lahiri Mahasaya, who is able to materialize himself at will in order
to intercede for you! I will take my wife and ask this master to initiate us in his spiritual path.
Will you guide us to him?'
"'Of course.' Joy filled me at the miraculous answer to my prayer, and the quick, favorable turn of
"The next evening your parents and I entrained for Benares. We took a horse cart the following day, and
then had to walk through narrow lanes to my guru's secluded home. Entering his little parlor, we bowed
before the master, enlocked in his habitual lotus posture. He blinked his piercing eyes and leveled
them on your father.
"'Bhagabati, you are too hard on your employee!' His words were the same as those he
had used two days before in the Gorakhpur field. He added, 'I am glad that you have allowed Abinash to
visit me, and that you and your wife have accompanied him.'
"To their joy, he initiated your parents in the spiritual practice of Kriya Yoga.9 Your father and I, as brother disciples, have been close friends since
the memorable day of the vision. Lahiri Mahasaya took a definite interest in your own birth. Your life
shall surely be linked with his own: the master's blessing never fails."
Lahiri Mahasaya left this world shortly after I had entered it. His picture, in an ornate frame, always
graced our family altar in the various cities to which Father was transferred by his office. Many a
morning and evening found Mother and me meditating before an improvised shrine, offering flowers dipped
in fragrant sandalwood paste. With frankincense and myrrh as well as our united devotions, we honored
the divinity which had found full expression in Lahiri Mahasaya.
His picture had a surpassing influence over my life. As I grew, the thought of the master grew with me.
In meditation I would often see his photographic image emerge from its small frame and, taking a living
form, sit before me. When I attempted to touch the feet of his luminous body, it would change and again
become the picture. As childhood slipped into boyhood, I found Lahiri Mahasaya transformed in my mind
from a little image, cribbed in a frame, to a living, enlightening presence. I frequently prayed to him
in moments of trial or confusion, finding within me his solacing direction. At first I grieved because
he was no longer physically living. As I began to discover his secret omnipresence, I lamented no more.
He had often written to those of his disciples who were over-anxious to see him: "Why come to view my
bones and flesh, when I am ever within range of your kutastha (spiritual sight)?"
I was blessed about the age of eight with a wonderful healing through the photograph of Lahiri
Mahasaya. This experience gave intensification to my love. While at our family estate in Ichapur,
Bengal, I was stricken with Asiatic cholera. My life was despaired of; the doctors could do nothing. At
my bedside, Mother frantically motioned me to look at Lahiri Mahasaya's picture on the wall above my
"Bow to him mentally!" She knew I was too feeble even to lift my hands in salutation. "If you really
show your devotion and inwardly kneel before him, your life will be spared!"
I gazed at his photograph and saw there a blinding light, enveloping my body and the entire room. My
nausea and other uncontrollable symptoms disappeared; I was well. At once I felt strong enough to bend
over and touch Mother's feet in appreciation of her immeasurable faith in her guru. Mother pressed her
head repeatedly against the little picture.
"O Omnipresent Master, I thank thee that thy light hath healed my son!"
I realized that she too had witnessed the luminous blaze through which I had instantly recovered from a
usually fatal disease.
One of my most precious possessions is that same photograph. Given to Father by Lahiri Mahasaya
himself, it carries a holy vibration. The picture had a miraculous origin. I heard the story from
Father's brother disciple, Kali Kumar Roy.
It appears that the master had an aversion to being photographed. Over his protest, a group picture was
once taken of him and a cluster of devotees, including Kali Kumar Roy. It was an amazed photographer
who discovered that the plate which had clear images of all the disciples, revealed nothing more than a
blank space in the center where he had reasonably expected to find the outlines of Lahiri Mahasaya. The
phenomenon was widely discussed.
A certain student and expert photographer, Ganga Dhar Babu, boasted that the fugitive figure would not
escape him. The next morning, as the guru sat in lotus posture on a wooden bench with a screen behind
him, Ganga Dhar Babu arrived with his equipment. Taking every precaution for success, he greedily
exposed twelve plates. On each one he soon found the imprint of the wooden bench and screen, but once
again the master's form was missing.
With tears and shattered pride, Ganga Dhar Babu sought out his guru. It was many hours before Lahiri
Mahasaya broke his silence with a pregnant comment:
"I am Spirit. Can your camera reflect the omnipresent Invisible?"
"I see it cannot! But, Holy Sir, I lovingly desire a picture of the bodily temple where alone, to my
narrow vision, that Spirit appears fully to dwell."
"Come, then, tomorrow morning. I will pose for you."
Again the photographer focused his camera. This time the sacred figure, not cloaked with mysterious
imperceptibility, was sharp on the plate. The master never posed for another picture; at least, I have
The photograph is reproduced in this book. Lahiri Mahasaya's fair features, of a universal cast, hardly
suggest to what race he belonged. His intense joy of God-communion is slightly revealed in a somewhat
enigmatic smile. His eyes, half open to denote a nominal direction on the outer world, are half closed
also. Completely oblivious to the poor lures of the earth, he was fully awake at all times to the
spiritual problems of seekers who approached for his bounty.
Shortly after my healing through the potency of the guru's picture, I had an influential spiritual
vision. Sitting on my bed one morning, I fell into a deep reverie.
"What is behind the darkness of closed eyes?" This probing thought came powerfully into my mind. An
immense flash of light at once manifested to my inward gaze. Divine shapes of saints, sitting in
meditation posture in mountain caves, formed like miniature cinema pictures on the large screen of
radiance within my forehead.
"Who are you?" I spoke aloud.
"We are the Himalayan yogis." The celestial response is difficult to describe; my heart was thrilled.
"Ah, I long to go to the Himalayas and become like you!" The vision vanished, but the
silvery beams expanded in ever-widening circles to infinity.
"What is this wondrous glow?"
"I am Iswara.10 I am Light." The voice was as murmuring clouds.
"I want to be one with Thee!"
Out of the slow dwindling of my divine ecstasy, I salvaged a permanent legacy of inspiration to seek
God. "He is eternal, ever-new Joy!" This memory persisted long after the day of rapture.
Another early recollection is outstanding; and literally so, for I bear the scar to this day. My elder
sister Uma and I were seated in the early morning under a neem tree in our Gorakhpur compound.
She was helping me with a Bengali primer, what time I could spare my gaze from the near-by parrots
eating ripe margosa fruit. Uma complained of a boil on her leg, and fetched a jar of ointment. I
smeared a bit of the salve on my forearm.
"Why do you use medicine on a healthy arm?"
"Well, Sis, I feel I am going to have a boil tomorrow. I am testing your ointment on the spot where the
boil will appear."
"You little liar!"
"Sis, don't call me a liar until you see what happens in the morning." Indignation filled me.
Uma was unimpressed, and thrice repeated her taunt. An adamant resolution sounded in my voice as I made
"By the power of will in me, I say that tomorrow I shall have a fairly large boil in this exact place
on my arm; and your boil shall swell to twice its present size!"
Morning found me with a stalwart boil on the indicated spot; the dimensions of Uma's boil had doubled.
With a shriek, my sister rushed to Mother. "Mukunda has become a necromancer!" Gravely, Mother
instructed me never to use the power of words for doing harm. I have always remembered her counsel, and
My boil was surgically treated. A noticeable scar, left by the doctor's incision, is present today. On
my right forearm is a constant reminder of the power in man's sheer word.
Those simple and apparently harmless phrases to Uma, spoken with deep concentration,
had possessed sufficient hidden force to explode like bombs and produce definite, though injurious,
effects. I understood, later, that the explosive vibratory power in speech could be
wisely directed to free one's life from difficulties, and thus operate without scar or rebuke.11
Our family moved to Lahore in the Punjab. There I acquired a picture of the Divine Mother in the form
of the Goddess Kali.12 It sanctified a small informal shrine on
the balcony of our home. An unequivocal conviction came over me that fulfillment would crown any of my
prayers uttered in that sacred spot. Standing there with Uma one day, I watched two kites flying over
the roofs of the buildings on the opposite side of the very narrow lane.
"Why are you so quiet?" Uma pushed me playfully.
"I am just thinking how wonderful it is that Divine Mother gives me whatever I ask."
"I suppose She would give you those two kites!" My sister laughed derisively.
"Why not?" I began silent prayers for their possession.
Matches are played in India with kites whose strings are covered with glue and ground glass. Each
player attempts to sever the string of his opponent. A freed kite sails over the roofs; there is great
fun in catching it. Inasmuch as Uma and I were on the balcony, it seemed impossible that any loosed
kite could come into our hands; its string would naturally dangle over the roofs.
The players across the lane began their match. One string was cut; immediately the kite floated in my
direction. It was stationary for a moment, through sudden abatement of breeze, which sufficed to firmly
entangle the string with a cactus plant on top of the opposite house. A perfect loop was formed for my
seizure. I handed the prize to Uma.
"It was just an extraordinary accident, and not an answer to your prayer. If the other kite comes to
you, then I shall believe." Sister's dark eyes conveyed more amazement than her words.
I continued my prayers with a crescendo intensity. A forcible tug by the other player resulted in the
abrupt loss of his kite. It headed toward me, dancing in the wind. My helpful assistant, the cactus
plant, again secured the kite string in the necessary loop by which I could grasp it. I presented my
second trophy to Uma.
"Indeed, Divine Mother listens to you! This is all too uncanny for me!" Sister bolted away like a
Chapter1 - My Parents and Early Life
Chapter2 - My Mother's Death and the Mystic Amulet
Chapter3 - The Saint With Two Bodies
Chapter4 - My Interrupted Flight Toward the Himalayas
Chapter5 - A "Perfume Saint" Displays His Wonders
Chapter6 - The Tiger Swami
Chapter7 - The Levitating Saint
Chapter8 - India's Great Scientist, J.C. Bose
Chapter9 - The Blissful Devotee and His Cosmic Romance
Chapter10 - I Meet My Master, Sri Yukteswar
Chapter11 - Two Penniless Boys in Brindaban
Chapter12 - Years in My Master's Hermitage
Chapter13 - The Sleepless Saint
Chapter14 - An Experience in Cosmic Consciousness
Chapter15 - The Cauliflower Robbery
Chapter16 - Outwitting the Stars
Chapter17 - Sasi and the Three Sapphires
Chapter18 - A Mohammedan Wonder-Worker
Chapter19 - My Master, in Calcutta, Appears in Serampore
Chapter20 - We Do Not Visit Kashmir
Chapter21 - We Visit Kashmir
Chapter22 - The Heart of a Stone Image
Chapter23 - I Receive My University Degree
Chapter24 - I Become a Monk of the Swami Order
Chapter25 - Brother Ananta and Sister Nalini
Chapter26 - The Science of Kriya Yoga
Chapter27 - Founding a Yoga School in Ranchi
Chapter28 - Kashi, Reborn and Rediscovered
Chapter29 - Rabindranath Tagore and I Compare Schools
Chapter30 - The Law of Miracles
Chapter31 - An Interview with the Sacred Mother
Chapter32 - Rama is Raised From the Dead
Chapter33 - Babaji, the Yogi-Christ of Modern India
Chapter34 - Materializing a Palace in the Himalaya
Chapter35 - The Christlike Life of Lahiri Mahasaya
Chapter36 - Babaji's Interest in the West
Chapter37 - I Go to America
Chapter38 - Luther Burbank -- A Saint Amidst the Roses
Chapter39 - Therese Neumann, the Catholic Stigmatist
Chapter40 - I Return to India
Chapter41 - An Idyll in South India
Chapter42 - Last Days With My Guru
Chapter43 - The Resurrection of Sri Yukteswar
Chapter44 - With Mahatma Gandhi in Wardha
Chapter45 - The Bengali "Joy-Permeated" Mother
Chapter46 - The Woman Yogi Who Never Eats
Chapter47 - I Return to the West
Chapter48 - At Encinitas in California
Chapter49 - The Years - 1940 - 1951