Chapter 4 - My Interrupted Flight Toward the Himalayas
"Leave your classroom on some trifling pretext, and engage a hackney carriage. Stop in the lane where
no one in my house can see you."
These were my final instructions to Amar Mitter, a high school friend who planned to accompany me to
the Himalayas. We had chosen the following day for our flight. Precautions were necessary, as Ananta
exercised a vigilant eye. He was determined to foil the plans of escape which he suspected were
uppermost in my mind. The amulet, like a spiritual yeast, was silently at work within me. Amidst the
Himalayan snows, I hoped to find the master whose face often appeared to me in visions.
The family was living now in Calcutta, where Father had been permanently transferred. Following the
patriarchal Indian custom, Ananta had brought his bride to live in our home, now at 4 Gurpar Road.
There in a small attic room I engaged in daily meditations and prepared my mind for the divine search.
The memorable morning arrived with inauspicious rain. Hearing the wheels of Amar's carriage in the
road, I hastily tied together a blanket, a pair of sandals, Lahiri Mahasaya's picture, a copy of the
Bhagavad Gita, a string of prayer beads, and two loincloths. This bundle I threw from my
third-story window. I ran down the steps and passed my uncle, buying fish at the door.
"What is the excitement?" His gaze roved suspiciously over my person.
I gave him a noncommittal smile and walked to the lane. Retrieving my bundle, I joined Amar with
conspiratorial caution. We drove to Chadni Chowk, a merchandise center. For months we had been saving
our tiffin money to buy English clothes. Knowing that my clever brother could easily play the part of a
detective, we thought to outwit him by European garb.
On the way to the station, we stopped for my cousin, Jotin Ghosh, whom I called Jatinda. He was a new
convert, longing for a guru in the Himalayas. He donned the new suit we had in readiness.
Well-camouflaged, we hoped! A deep elation possessed our hearts.
"All we need now are canvas shoes." I led my companions to a shop displaying rubber-soled footwear.
"Articles of leather, gotten only through the slaughter of animals, must be absent on this holy trip."
I halted on the street to remove the leather cover from my Bhagavad Gita, and the leather straps
from my English-made sola topee (helmet).
At the station we bought tickets to Burdwan, where we planned to transfer for Hardwar in the Himalayan
foothills. As soon as the train, like ourselves, was in flight, I gave utterance to a few of my
"Just imagine!" I ejaculated. "We shall be initiated by the masters and experience the trance of cosmic
consciousness. Our flesh will be charged with such magnetism that wild animals of the Himalayas will
come tamely near us. Tigers will be no more than meek house cats awaiting our caresses!"
This remarkpicturing a prospect I considered entrancing, both metaphorically and literallybrought an
enthusiastic smile from Amar. But Jatinda averted his gaze, directing it through the window at the
"Let the money be divided in three portions." Jatinda broke a long silence with this suggestion. "Each
of us should buy his own ticket at Burdwan. Thus no one at the station will surmise that we are running
I unsuspectingly agreed. At dusk our train stopped at Burdwan. Jatinda entered the ticket office; Amar
and I sat on the platform. We waited fifteen minutes, then made unavailing inquiries. Searching in all
directions, we shouted Jatinda's name with the urgency of fright. But he had faded into the dark
unknown surrounding the little station.
I was completely unnerved, shocked to a peculiar numbness. That God would countenance this depressing
episode! The romantic occasion of my first carefully-planned flight after Him was cruelly marred.
"Amar, we must return home." I was weeping like a child. "Jatinda's callous departure is an ill omen.
This trip is doomed to failure."
"Is this your love for the Lord? Can't you stand the little test of a treacherous companion?"
Through Amar's suggestion of a divine test, my heart steadied itself. We refreshed ourselves with
famous Burdwan sweetmeats, sitabhog (food for the goddess) and motichur (nuggets of sweet
pearl). In a few hours, we entrained for Hardwar, via Bareilly. Changing trains at Moghul Serai, we
discussed a vital matter as we waited on the platform.
"Amar, we may soon be closely questioned by railroad officials. I am not underrating my brother's
ingenuity! No matter what the outcome, I will not speak untruth."
"All I ask of you, Mukunda, is to keep still. Don't laugh or grin while I am talking."
At this moment, a European station agent accosted me. He waved a telegram whose import I immediately
"Are you running away from home in anger?"
"No!" I was glad his choice of words permitted me to make emphatic reply. Not anger but "divinest
melancholy" was responsible, I knew, for my unconventional behavior.
The official then turned to Amar. The duel of wits that followed hardly permitted me to maintain the
counseled stoic gravity.
"Where is the third boy?" The man injected a full ring of authority into his voice. "Come on; speak the
"Sir, I notice you are wearing eyeglasses. Can't you see that we are only two?" Amar smiled impudently.
"I am not a magician; I can't conjure up a third companion."
The official, noticeably disconcerted by this impertinence, sought a new field of attack.
"What is your name?"
"I am called Thomas. I am the son of an English mother and a converted Christian Indian father."
"What is your friend's name?"
"I call him Thompson."
By this time my inward mirth had reached a zenith; I unceremoniously made for the train, whistling for
departure. Amar followed with the official, who was credulous and obliging enough to put us into a
European compartment. It evidently pained him to think of two half-English boys traveling in the
section allotted to natives. After his polite exit, I lay back on the seat and laughed uncontrollably.
My friend wore an expression of blithe satisfaction at having outwitted a veteran European official.
On the platform I had contrived to read the telegram. From my brother, it went thus: "Three Bengali
boys in English clothes running away from home toward Hardwar via Moghul Serai. Please detain them
until my arrival. Ample reward for your services."
"Amar, I told you not to leave marked timetables in your home." My glance was reproachful. "Brother
must have found one there."
My friend sheepishly acknowledged the thrust. We halted briefly in Bareilly, where Dwarka Prasad
awaited us with a telegram from Ananta. My old friend tried valiantly to detain us; I convinced him
that our flight had not been undertaken lightly. As on a previous occasion, Dwarka refused my
invitation to set forth to the Himalayas.
While our train stood in a station that night, and I was half asleep, Amar was awakened by another
questioning official. He, too, fell a victim to the hybrid charms of "Thomas" and "Thompson." The train
bore us triumphantly into a dawn arrival at Hardwar. The majestic mountains loomed invitingly in the
distance. We dashed through the station and entered the freedom of city crowds. Our first act was to
change into native costume, as Ananta had somehow penetrated our European disguise. A premonition of
capture weighed on my mind.
Deeming it advisable to leave Hardwar at once, we bought tickets to proceed north to Rishikesh, a soil
long hallowed by feet of many masters. I had already boarded the train, while Amar lagged on the
platform. He was brought to an abrupt halt by a shout from a policeman. Our unwelcome guardian escorted
us to a station bungalow and took charge of our money. He explained courteously that it was his duty to
hold us until my elder brother arrived.
Learning that the truants' destination had been the Himalayas, the officer related a strange story.
"I see you are crazy about saints! You will never meet a greater man of God than the one I saw only
yesterday. My brother officer and I first encountered him five days ago. We were patrolling by the
Ganges, on a sharp lookout for a certain murderer. Our instructions were to capture him, alive or dead.
He was known to be masquerading as a sadhu in order to rob pilgrims. A short way before us, we
spied a figure which resembled the description of the criminal. He ignored our command to stop; we ran
to overpower him. Approaching his back, I wielded my ax with tremendous force; the man's right arm was
severed almost completely from his body.
"Without outcry or any glance at the ghastly wound, the stranger astonishingly continued his swift
pace. As we jumped in front of him, he spoke quietly.
"'I am not the murderer you are seeking.'
"I was deeply mortified to see I had injured the person of a divine-looking sage. Prostrating myself at
his feet, I implored his pardon, and offered my turban-cloth to staunch the heavy spurts of blood.
"'Son, that was just an understandable mistake on your part.' The saint regarded me kindly. 'Run along,
and don't reproach yourself. The Beloved Mother is taking care of me.' He pushed his dangling arm into
its stump and lo! it adhered; the blood inexplicably ceased to flow.
"'Come to me under yonder tree in three days and you will find me fully healed. Thus you will feel no
"Yesterday my brother officer and I went eagerly to the designated spot. The sadhu was there and
allowed us to examine his arm. It bore no scar or trace of hurt!
"'I am going via Rishikesh to the Himalayan solitudes.' He blessed us as he departed quickly. I feel
that my life has been uplifted through his sanctity."
The officer concluded with a pious ejaculation; his experience had obviously moved him beyond his usual
depths. With an impressive gesture, he handed me a printed clipping about the miracle. In the usual
garbled manner of the sensational type of newspaper (not missing, alas! even in India), the reporter's
version was slightly exaggerated: it indicated that the sadhu had been almost decapitated!
Amar and I lamented that we had missed the great yogi who could forgive his persecutor in such a
Christlike way. India, materially poor for the last two centuries, yet has an inexhaustible fund of
divine wealth; spiritual "skyscrapers" may occasionally be encountered by the wayside, even by worldly
men like this policeman.
We thanked the officer for relieving our tedium with his marvelous story. He was probably intimating
that he was more fortunate than we: he had met an illumined saint without effort; our earnest search
had ended, not at the feet of a master, but in a coarse police station!
So near the Himalayas and yet, in our captivity, so far, I told Amar I felt doubly impelled to seek
"Let us slip away when opportunity offers. We can go on foot to holy Rishikesh." I smiled
But my companion had turned pessimist as soon as the stalwart prop of our money had been taken from us.
"If we started a trek over such dangerous jungle land, we should finish, not in the city of saints, but
in the stomachs of tigers!"
Ananta and Amar's brother arrived after three days. Amar greeted his relative with affectionate relief.
I was unreconciled; Ananta got no more from me than a severe upbraiding.
"I understand how you feel." My brother spoke soothingly. "All I ask of you is to accompany me to
Benares to meet a certain saint, and go on to Calcutta to visit your grieving father for a few days.
Then you can resume your search here for a master."
Amar entered the conversation at this point to disclaim any intention of returning to Hardwar with me.
He was enjoying the familial warmth. But I knew I would never abandon the quest for my guru.
Our party entrained for Benares. There I had a singular and instant response to my prayers.
A clever scheme had been prearranged by Ananta. Before seeing me at Hardwar, he had
stopped in Benares to ask a certain scriptural authority to interview me later. Both the pundit and his
son had promised to undertake my dissuasion from the path of a sannyasi.1
Ananta took me to their home. The son, a young man of ebullient manner, greeted me in the courtyard. He
engaged me in a lengthy philosophic discourse. Professing to have a clairvoyant knowledge of my future,
he discountenanced my idea of being a monk.
Krishna's immortal words rose to my lips in reply: "'Even he with the worst of karma
who ceaselessly meditates on Me quickly loses the effects of his past bad actions. Becoming a
high-souled being, he soon attains perennial peace. Arjuna, know this for certain: the devotee who puts
his trust in Me never perishes!'"3
But the forceful prognostications of the young man had slightly shaken my confidence. With all the
fervor of my heart I prayed silently to God:
"Please solve my bewilderment and answer me, right here and now, if Thou dost desire me to lead the
life of a renunciate or a worldly man!"
I noticed a sadhu of noble countenance standing just outside the compound of the pundit's house.
Evidently he had overheard the spirited conversation between the self-styled clairvoyant and myself,
for the stranger called me to his side. I felt a tremendous power flowing from his calm eyes.
"Son, don't listen to that ignoramus. In response to your prayer, the Lord tells me to assure you that
your sole path in this life is that of the renunciate."
With astonishment as well as gratitude, I smiled happily at this decisive message.
"Come away from that man!" The "ignoramus" was calling me from the courtyard. My saintly guide raised
his hand in blessing and slowly departed.
"That sadhu is just as crazy as you are." It was the hoary-headed pundit who made this charming
observation. He and his son were gazing at me lugubriously. "I heard that he too has left his home in a
vague search for God."
I turned away. To Ananta I remarked that I would not engage in further discussion with our hosts. My
brother agreed to an immediate departure; we soon entrained for Calcutta.
"Mr. Detective, how did you discover I had fled with two companions?" I vented my lively curiosity to
Ananta during our homeward journey. He smiled mischievously.
"At your school, I found that Amar had left his classroom and had not returned. I went to his home the
next morning and unearthed a marked timetable. Amar's father was just leaving by carriage and was
talking to the coachman.
"'My son will not ride with me to his school this morning. He has disappeared!' the father moaned.
"'I heard from a brother coachman that your son and two others, dressed in European suits, boarded the
train at Howrah Station,' the man stated. 'They made a present of their leather shoes to the cab
"Thus I had three cluesthe timetable, the trio of boys, and the English clothing."
I was listening to Ananta's disclosures with mingled mirth and vexation. Our generosity to the coachman
had been slightly misplaced!
"Of course I rushed to send telegrams to station officials in all the cities which Amar had underlined
in the timetable. He had checked Bareilly, so I wired your friend Dwarka there. After inquiries in our
Calcutta neighborhood, I learned that cousin Jatinda had been absent one night but had arrived home the
following morning in European garb. I sought him out and invited him to dinner. He accepted, quite
disarmed by my friendly manner. On the way I led him unsuspectingly to a police station. He was
surrounded by several officers whom I had previously selected for their ferocious appearance. Under
their formidable gaze, Jatinda agreed to account for his mysterious conduct.
"'I started for the Himalayas in a buoyant spiritual mood,' he explained. 'Inspiration filled me at the
prospect of meeting the masters. But as soon as Mukunda said, "During our ecstasies in the Himalayan
caves, tigers will be spellbound and sit around us like tame pussies," my spirits froze; beads of
perspiration formed on my brow. "What then?" I thought. "If the vicious nature of the tigers be not
changed through the power of our spiritual trance, shall they treat us with the kindness of house
cats?" In my mind's eye, I already saw myself the compulsory inmate of some tiger's stomachentering
there not at once with the whole body, but by installments of its several parts!'"
My anger at Jatinda's vanishment was evaporated in laughter. The hilarious sequel on
the train was worth all the anguish he had caused me. I must confess to a slight feeling of
satisfaction: Jatinda too had not escaped an encounter with the police!
"Ananta,4 you are a born sleuthhound!" My glance of amusement was
not without some exasperation. "And I shall tell Jatinda I am glad he was prompted by no mood of
treachery, as it appeared, but only by the prudent instinct of self-preservation!"
At home in Calcutta, Father touchingly requested me to curb my roving feet until, at
least, the completion of my high school studies. In my absence, he had lovingly hatched a plot by
arranging for a saintly pundit, Swami Kebalananda5, to come
regularly to the house.
"The sage will be your Sanskrit tutor," my parent announced confidently.
Father hoped to satisfy my religious yearnings by instructions from a learned philosopher. But the
tables were subtly turned: my new teacher, far from offering intellectual aridities, fanned the embers
of my God-aspiration. Unknown to Father, Swami Kebalananda was an exalted disciple of Lahiri Mahasaya.
The peerless guru had possessed thousands of disciples, silently drawn to him by the irresistibility of
his divine magnetism. I learned later that Lahiri Mahasaya had often characterized Kebalananda as
rishi or illumined sage.
Luxuriant curls framed my tutor's handsome face. His dark eyes were guileless, with the transparency of
a child's. All the movements of his slight body were marked by a restful deliberation. Ever gentle and
loving, he was firmly established in the infinite consciousness. Many of our happy hours together were
spent in deep Kriya meditation.
Kebalananda was a noted authority on the ancient shastras or sacred books: his erudition had
earned him the title of "Shastri Mahasaya," by which he was usually addressed. But my progress in
Sanskrit scholarship was unnoteworthy. I sought every opportunity to forsake prosaic grammar and to
talk of yoga and Lahiri Mahasaya. My tutor obliged me one day by telling me something of his own life
with the master.
"Rarely fortunate, I was able to remain near Lahiri Mahasaya for ten years. His Benares home was my
nightly goal of pilgrimage. The guru was always present in a small front parlor on the first floor. As
he sat in lotus posture on a backless wooden seat, his disciples garlanded him in a semicircle. His
eyes sparkled and danced with the joy of the Divine. They were ever half closed, peering through the
inner telescopic orb into a sphere of eternal bliss. He seldom spoke at length. Occasionally his gaze
would focus on a student in need of help; healing words poured then like an avalanche of light.
"An indescribable peace blossomed within me at the master's glance. I was permeated with his fragrance,
as though from a lotus of infinity. To be with him, even without exchanging a word for days, was
experience which changed my entire being. If any invisible barrier rose in the path of my
concentration, I would meditate at the guru's feet. There the most tenuous states came easily within my
grasp. Such perceptions eluded me in the presence of lesser teachers. The master was a living temple of
God whose secret doors were open to all disciples through devotion.
"Lahiri Mahasaya was no bookish interpreter of the scriptures. Effortlessly he dipped
into the 'divine library.' Foam of words and spray of thoughts gushed from the fountain of his
omniscience. He had the wondrous clavis which unlocked the profound philosophical science embedded ages
ago in the Vedas. 6 If asked to explain the different planes
of consciousness mentioned in the ancient texts, he would smilingly assent.
"'I will undergo those states, and presently tell you what I perceive.' He was thus diametrically
unlike the teachers who commit scripture to memory and then give forth unrealized abstractions.
"'Please expound the holy stanzas as the meaning occurs to you.' The taciturn guru often gave this
instruction to a near-by disciple. 'I will guide your thoughts, that the right interpretation be
uttered.' In this way many of Lahiri Mahasaya's perceptions came to be recorded, with voluminous
commentaries by various students.
"The master never counseled slavish belief. 'Words are only shells,' he said. 'Win conviction of God's
presence through your own joyous contact in meditation.'
"No matter what the disciple's problem, the guru advised Kriya Yoga for its solution.
"'The yogic key will not lose its efficiency when I am no longer present in the body to guide you. This
technique cannot be bound, filed, and forgotten, in the manner of theoretical inspirations. Continue
ceaselessly on your path to liberation through Kriya, whose power lies in practice.'
"I myself consider Kriya the most effective device of salvation through self-effort ever to be
evolved in man's search for the Infinite." Kebalananda concluded with this earnest testimony. "Through
its use, the omnipotent God, hidden in all men, became visibly incarnated in the flesh of Lahiri
Mahasaya and a number of his disciples."
A Christlike miracle by Lahiri Mahasaya took place in Kebalananda's presence. My saintly tutor
recounted the story one day, his eyes remote from the Sanskrit texts before us.
"A blind disciple, Ramu, aroused my active pity. Should he have no light in his eyes, when he
faithfully served our master, in whom the Divine was fully blazing? One morning I sought to speak to
Ramu, but he sat for patient hours fanning the guru with a hand-made palm-leaf punkha. When the
devotee finally left the room, I followed him.
"'Ramu, how long have you been blind?'
"'From my birth, sir! Never have my eyes been blessed with a glimpse of the sun.'
"'Our omnipotent guru can help you. Please make a supplication.'
"The following day Ramu diffidently approached Lahiri Mahasaya. The disciple felt almost ashamed to ask
that physical wealth be added to his spiritual superabundance.
"'Master, the Illuminator of the cosmos is in you. I pray you to bring His light into my eyes, that I
perceive the sun's lesser glow.'
"'Ramu, someone has connived to put me in a difficult position. I have no healing power.'
"'Sir, the Infinite One within you can certainly heal.'
"'Keep your mind concentrated there, and frequently chant the name of the prophet Rama8 for seven days. The splendor of the sun shall have a special dawn for
"Lo! in one week it was so. For the first time, Ramu beheld the fair face of nature. The Omniscient One
had unerringly directed his disciple to repeat the name of Rama, adored by him above all other saints.
Ramu's faith was the devotionally ploughed soil in which the guru's powerful seed of permanent healing
sprouted." Kebalananda was silent for a moment, then paid a further tribute to his
"It was evident in all miracles performed by Lahiri Mahasaya that he never allowed the
ego-principle9 to consider itself a causative force. By perfection
of resistless surrender, the master enabled the Prime Healing Power to flow freely through him.
"The numerous bodies which were spectacularly healed through Lahiri Mahasaya eventually had to feed the
flames of cremation. But the silent spiritual awakenings he effected, the Christlike disciples he
fashioned, are his imperishable miracles."
I never became a Sanskrit scholar; Kebalananda taught me a diviner syntax.
Chapter1 - My Parents and Early Life
Chapter2 - My Mother's Death and the Mystic Amulet
Chapter3 - The Saint With Two Bodies
Chapter4 - My Interrupted Flight Toward the Himalayas
Chapter5 - A "Perfume Saint" Displays His Wonders
Chapter6 - The Tiger Swami
Chapter7 - The Levitating Saint
Chapter8 - India's Great Scientist, J.C. Bose
Chapter9 - The Blissful Devotee and His Cosmic Romance
Chapter10 - I Meet My Master, Sri Yukteswar
Chapter11 - Two Penniless Boys in Brindaban
Chapter12 - Years in My Master's Hermitage
Chapter13 - The Sleepless Saint
Chapter14 - An Experience in Cosmic Consciousness
Chapter15 - The Cauliflower Robbery
Chapter16 - Outwitting the Stars
Chapter17 - Sasi and the Three Sapphires
Chapter18 - A Mohammedan Wonder-Worker
Chapter19 - My Master, in Calcutta, Appears in Serampore
Chapter20 - We Do Not Visit Kashmir
Chapter21 - We Visit Kashmir
Chapter22 - The Heart of a Stone Image
Chapter23 - I Receive My University Degree
Chapter24 - I Become a Monk of the Swami Order
Chapter25 - Brother Ananta and Sister Nalini
Chapter26 - The Science of Kriya Yoga
Chapter27 - Founding a Yoga School in Ranchi
Chapter28 - Kashi, Reborn and Rediscovered
Chapter29 - Rabindranath Tagore and I Compare Schools
Chapter30 - The Law of Miracles
Chapter31 - An Interview with the Sacred Mother
Chapter32 - Rama is Raised From the Dead
Chapter33 - Babaji, the Yogi-Christ of Modern India
Chapter34 - Materializing a Palace in the Himalaya
Chapter35 - The Christlike Life of Lahiri Mahasaya
Chapter36 - Babaji's Interest in the West
Chapter37 - I Go to America
Chapter38 - Luther Burbank -- A Saint Amidst the Roses
Chapter39 - Therese Neumann, the Catholic Stigmatist
Chapter40 - I Return to India
Chapter41 - An Idyll in South India
Chapter42 - Last Days With My Guru
Chapter43 - The Resurrection of Sri Yukteswar
Chapter44 - With Mahatma Gandhi in Wardha
Chapter45 - The Bengali "Joy-Permeated" Mother
Chapter46 - The Woman Yogi Who Never Eats
Chapter47 - I Return to the West
Chapter48 - At Encinitas in California
Chapter49 - The Years - 1940 - 1951